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Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Maureen’s Musings on a Hot Summer Day


I’ve been inundated with requests for interviews lately and it’s all very nice but interviewers all seem to have the same generic questions. Of course, each and every request comes with a friendly statement that I should feel free to “speak” (write) about any topic I’d like and the questions are just suggestions. So, I usually try to give an interview that offers up a new angle (I hate repeating myself) and try to execute a clever end run around the same-old/same-old.

Nonetheless, I’m going to answer one of the most persistent questions right here & now (I’ve created a hybrid question that melds together all the possible variations on the same theme); to wit: “what was/is your inspiration; what inspires you when you write; where do you find your inspiration; how can writers find inspiration?” and yada yada yada ad nauseum.

Which reminds me of Stephen King’s great aphorism:  Amateurs sit and wait for inspiration. The rest of us just get up and go to work.”

Writing is a job – and a damn hard one. Writers don’t wallow in inspiration; writers wallow in work… lots and lots of hard work.

By “writing” I refer to the art, technique, and maintenance required to call oneself an author – one who is still living, breathing and generating new works.

If you’re an author today, whether you’re highly successful or not, you’re an independent business person; you run a business and that business is you. The truth of it is also this: if you don’t think of yourself as a business you will most likely never stand a snowball’s chance in hell of becoming successful commercially.

All authors today are either small business owners (the ma’ and pa’ stores of the industry) or, if they’ve hit the career jackpot, they will either manage or direct the management of a vast enterprise that – guess what? – is still all about them. Before Rowling there was Disney… and between Rowling and the one-book-to-yet-be-discovered author there’s a great group of A-Listers: Grisham, Patterson, Evanovich, Meyer. They have turned their ma’ & pa’ stores, their small proprietorships, into large corporate endeavors but it’s still all about them.

YOU must make it all about YOU; no one else can do that for you.

Which is a nice segue into this next thought:

I continue to be amazed at the author-wannabees who disparage indies because they’d rather “wait for an agent.” They remind me of the desperate spinster thinking that if she catches the bridal bouquet she’ll be the next gal at the altar.

Yeah: we all know how that works. Look around you, sweetie; the girls who make it to the altar have been on the dance floor all night workin’ up a sweat -- while you sat at a table full of babushkas talking about all the women they know who died in child birth... 

Talk about fun...

Seriously, as someone I know once put it: Those who can, DO; those who can’t, TALK ABOUT IT.

Put another way: given the vagaries and realities of today’s marketplace, waiting for an agent to find you makes perfect sense only if you’re really sure you never want to get published.

And whatever gave these wannabees the idea that once they get an agent they don’t have to work to promote themselves? Aren’t they reading what everyone’s been writing? This is something I see all the time – it’s the wannabee mantra: “I don’t want to do all the stuff it takes to be an author today; an agent will handle that for me… so I’ll wait until I hook one.”

What are they smokin’? I guess that’s OK if you want to hang around for five or ten years…

Me? I have a life to live, baby!

Some more rambling musings:

·         You are an author when you actually author something; publication has nothing to do with it. So finish that damn book already and quit talking about it. And spare me your word count. Who the hell cares how many words you wrote today? That tells me nothing. It’s not about the damn word count, kid; it’s about the quality of your writing. A novel is not a novel because it has 110,000 words – the Chicago Yellow Pages probably has 10 million words but that doesn't make it a library.  

·         Perception really is everything: both for you and those you want to follow you. So please! Stop it already with the whiney Facebook pages, blogs saturated with angst and self-absorption and all those Twitter profiles that scream “author wannabee looking for a spouse.”  You know the ones: they say “aspiring novelist looking to have my self-worth and talent validated by a total stranger I haven’t even met yet.” (Think of the spinster: how many offers is she going to get with a sign around her neck that screams “Send me a man to give me an identity, make me feel pretty and loved, give me some babies, and help me avoid bankruptcy”?  Yeah: that’s sexy as hell; a lot of guys are gonna’ bite the bait on that one.)

·         As to the “inspiration” question: I never knew a “natural born” anyone who needed “inspiration” to be what came most naturally to them, especially in the creative arts. Inspiration is overrated and as a term seriously overused. The burning need to write, or paint or dance or make music is not borne of inspiration external to self – it is self. It emanates from within; it’s your soul crying out to be free as only you can be free, as only you are; it is a life force within you and if it is true and genuine it cannot be denied.

So where does the work come in? Ah, I knew we’d get back to that point: just because it’s your natural born talent doesn’t mean it’s not work. The need to express yourself through writing or dance or music is inborn – it comes from somewhere deep inside and takes us back to self. How successfully one may transform the inner need to write or dance or make music and become an author, a ballerina or a pianist hinges on discipline and the capacity for hard work.

In my opinion, anyone with a burning need to write or dance or sing can certainly do so and probably will do so – they will find some way to express that need. However, turning pro requires kicking it up a notch. It begins with first learning the tools of one’s expression; with the writer it is having a solid command of language, grammar, punctuation. (So, yes: I do believe if you want people to read and respect your writing you must write well – and that includes knowing the rules of the road.) Even Mozart took lessons (remember Salieri?). It was only after Mozart mastered scales that he could soar and become… well, Mozart.

Here’s my advice to anyone who wants to transform their inborn need to write into the business of being an author:

Maureen’s Rule #1: Master language – from the double negative to the dangling participle: get it down. Once you have it mastered then and only then can you decide how to creatively play with the rules and become an e.e. cummings or James Joyce. There’s a world of difference between breaking the rules for emphasis or to push the boundaries of literary license and just being an unlettered clod. 

Maureen’s Rule #2: Practice, practice, practice (if you really love to write, this is the easy part).

Maureen’s Rule #3: Draft, draft, draft (this is the part that requires serious discipline, if not carloads of humility).

Maureen’s Rule #4: Draft some more (this builds muscle and also confidence).

Maureen’s Rule #5: Don’t be the spinster at the wedding. Don’t wait for a date. Don’t wait for a lover. Don't wait for anyone; ever. It's your train, your schedule.

Maureen’s Rule #6: Love yourself. Dance with yourself. Hire yourself – Become Your Own Agent.



Maureen’s Rule #7: Did I mention you need to draft a lot?

Maureen’s Rule #8: Finish the damn book already.

I like this pic so much
I'm using it twice! Remember:
U can do this
baby!
Maureen’s Rule #9: Publish the damn book already (you can do this baby, you really can...).

Maureen’s Rule #10: Prepare for the wedding but while you’re waiting for the guests to arrive: write another book.

Note: Any sexist language in this article is purely for literary convenience. These comments and rules are applicable to both sexes and analogies can go either way... I'm sure you can figure it out, right? 

Final Comment:
Remember ---> Authors write; everyone else just talks about it. ~Maureen Gill


Friday, June 17, 2011

Some Ramblings for Father's Day

This weekend we celebrate Father's Day. I always enjoyed Father’s Day more than Mother’s Day and I’m not sure why. Perhaps because it seems less stuffy; certainly, it’s less saccharine. There’s just something about Mother’s Day that could give a person diabetes.


Sugar Cubes
On Mother’s Day we elevate motherhood to a state of near sanctity and although I think there might be arguments to support that type of adoration I think it causes a lot of emotional pain and disappointment. I would prefer we just had a national Women’s Day, a day that would commemorate the nurturing and mentoring role that women play in the world -- something more inclusive that recognizes all women are mothers in their hearts and souls. There were childless women in my life who contributed greatly to the quality of my life and I know those ladies are more the rule than the exception. Motherhood, I believe, makes too much of biology and not enough of the graces all good women possess.

Father’s Day doesn’t seem to suffer from the same deep psychic and social constructions. First of all I don’t think fathers need a holiday to validate themselves as much as women have been led to believe they do; an example of this might be the fact that it would probably be a rare dad who died for lack of a Father’s Day card. Most men wouldn’t even suffer a bout of gas over the issue.

But blow Mother’s Day and you might have a conversation like this…


            “Congratulations,” your sister will snipe when she calls you, “mother’s dying of grief. I hope you’re satisfied. Bob and I went over to the house with the kids this afternoon to take mother to brunch but she wouldn’t go. She wanted to sit next to the phone waiting for your call. She believed you’d call because you apparently didn’t send a card but when you didn’t call, well…listen, all I can say is if she dies I’ll never forgive you.”

Men are different. If you blow Sunday you can just call and say you’ll be over Wednesday. Your conversation will more likely go like this:

            “So, Dad, I’m sorry I forgot to call you Sunday or send a card…”
            “What are you talking about?” Immediately you know he’s wondering if he just had a birthday or something.


            “Father’s Day, Dad. Sunday was Father’s Day.”
            “Oh, yeah, I think your Mother might have mentioned that.  So, hey, whaddya’ think about them there Cubs this year, huh? Didcha’ see what they did in Pittsburgh?”



            “Dad, you want I should maybe pick up some Chinese?” You say that because you know he likes the egg rolls at a place in the old neighborhood and he never gets over there anymore. “I’ll shoot over to One Hung Low’s place…”
            “Naw, don’t bother.” Then he brightens, “But hey, if you’re passing Menards…”

Father’s Day is just so user-friendly, so less labor-intensive than Mother’s Day, you know what I mean?

This weekend I’ll be remembering my Dad and two wonderful grandfathers. I also want to thank my husband for being a fantastic father to our son Shaun.

May all you Dads out there enjoy your day and BTW, just a head’s up: Ace Hardware has some great sales this weekend.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

One Lame-Ass Blog Post

Mick's List
I have a list as long as your arm of things I need to do today...

Why can't I get motivated?

Mick's Whirling Mind

I need to get back to writing "March Storm" and would like to have a cover ready before I finish the book but the cover doesn't seem to be coming together for me as well as I'd like and that's certainly not the fault of anyone but me because I know I've been all over the road... I'm sort of all twisted up about it too. Know what I mean?

Bat-Shit Crazy People
There are interviews to give and to be written (I know many great authors and other interesting people and want to introduce them to you...) and I have emails to answer and generate and I started an article several days ago about The Comstock Laws (the true story about the man who decided to conduct a sexual purity campaign in America) that I need to finish because I already promised it to the editor of another blog. It's a great article and very timely because a bat-shit crazy group of people calling themselves "Personhood USA" are now warring on our reproductive rights. Who the hell are these people?

And my beloved "January Moon" needs some attention; I need to get back on schedule with its promotion...which reminds me I have a date tomorrow with some lovely people in a book club who've invited me to visit and discuss "January Moon." I'm thrilled about that and think it will be a lot of fun but I need to call and get directions again.
I had a directions here somewhere... I can't find a damn thing on my desk.

Did I mention I need to get my hair done and also find a card for 50th Wedding Anniversary this Friday? 

Oh yeah, and we have dear friends coming to visit next week and more dear friends are planning a get together for all of us to get together... and I have a few things I need to do to get ready and I'm also trying to put together another get together with old friends from grade school & high school....and wow, why are these things either feast or famine? Four Hundred Years of Loneliness and all at once it's Party Time! Isn't that always how it goes?  Especially in June?

And then there's the none-too small matter that I also need to get a plumber about a wee leak under the sink and find the time to pull some weeds and kill some dust bunnies lurking in dark shadows thoughout the house.

Mick's Monstrous Weeds
THE GILLS HAVE THE LARGEST, UGLIEST WEEDS IN AMERICA -- HERE, TAKE A LOOK IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME.

And this NO laughing matter... one of them attacked the dog last night. The damn thing jumped up off the lawn and wrapped itself around Shadow's tail and almost dragged him into the netherworld (true story).

But we're not half as worried about the Killer Weeds as we are about the Monster Dust Bunnies.... We had four cats and now we're down to three.  Worrisome, very worrisome...
Mick's Monstrous Dust Bunnies


I want to do a blog tour and don't even know what the hell that is (do I need to pack walking shoes?) and I think we're growing a new form of penicillin in the crisper in the 'fridge and it just dawned on me I think I need to give the dog his heartworm prevention meds today and let's see... what else?

This is the 7th and I don't think I've paid all the bills yet... God, I'm a mess.

 And Twitter. What the hell is that really all about? I was going to experiment with it but forgot why or how and I know I need to go to my website and study some stats and share an idea I have with my web team... and I'm wondering why we didn't hear from Shaun over the weekend. We'd better give him a call... among other things, we need to start discussing our trip to visit him up in Maine this summer. Hmmm... his father better get on the ball with our travel plans.


Have I ever told you how much I love Maine?






Here's a delightful family picture of me having fun in Maine last summer. 


OOOPS, wrong picture... OK, here's the picture of me having fun in Maine last summer. 



(Woke you up with that one, didn't I?)



OK, so that's how I MIGHT have looked to you if you were really drunk and really lonely back when I was 21 and lived in Ft. Lauderdale.

And here's how I REALLY looked -- half-geezed after a day at the beach -- relaxing at a lovely restaurant near the ocean when I was in Maine last summer.



Doncha' think Ursula and I could be twins? 

Well, it's now 1:30 in the afternoon and I've successfully persuaded myself I've just worked pretty damn hard writing this post even if it is hands-down the most lame-ass thing I've ever written in my entire life... and you know, there's no time to do a rewrite because there's a hammock in the yard calling my name and I see Al has his eye on it too and I need to wrap this up and beat him out to the yard.

But I'll make myself feel quite responsible because I'll take my work with me, right out to the hammock. Here's my plan: because so many people say I write like Michael Connolly I finally downloaded "The Lincoln Lawyer" to my Kindle but haven't been able to snatch it away from Al... he's been really engrossed in it and told me over coffee this morning, "Yeah, it's true. You and Connolly write a lot alike." I really need to see if this is true. What better excuse to bump Al from both his claims to the hammock and the Kindle?

"Honey, I have work to do..."

Of course, now that you've read this post there's no chance in hell you're buying the idea that I write anything like Connolly but, trust me, that's what's being said.

Do I think it's true?

I have no idea... that's why I need to grab the Kindle, hit the hammock, and put everything else on hold.

An indulgence? No way!

It's called "research" my friends! 


You understand, right?

Of course you do!

Friday, May 27, 2011

I REALLY do Love Fred Wiley

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OK, so Wednesday I introduced you to Del Carter and we talked about good sax... Del's a musical guy; he has a great voice and a memory for any tune he's ever heard and he's a real hoot when he makes up his own lyrics. He's fairly good on the piano but not the sax, which is something he regrets because he loves alto sax. He can belt out ALL the songs from West Side Story, likes to whistle the tune from The Bridge Over the River Kwai and routinely sings Dylan's Lay, Lady Lay as a lullaby to his lover as she sleeps in his arms after they've made love. When he jogs he listens to Rocky. This is all pretty amazing when you realize he's thirty-something. When it comes to music, Del's pretty much all over the place: Big Bands and Swing, Classic R&R, Country Western, show tunes, classical (especially Bach), and even Christmas carols -- but if he had to choose it would be jazz and more jazz. In January Moon, the reader is introduced to Del's love for music and some of his personal favorites. The only music Del's not fond of is anything by Kenny G; he insists it all sounds the same.

Which is a pretty damn good segue into introducing Fred Wiley.

Wiley (he's almost always called by his last name) would most likely ask, "Who the hell's Kenny G?" and suspect he hangs with Eddie the Banana over at Carmines. Let him listen to Kenny and Wiley would say, "Hell, why didn't you just say you meant elevator music?"

Wiley keeps it simple: he's basically a Jim Morrison/The Doors kinda' guy.

He has three "LA Woman" albums, two on 8-track and only recently acquired it remastered on digital because it was a gift. There's nothing wrong with 8-tracks and Fred knows it. When he's not listening to The Doors, he's probably listening to Smokey Robinson, Led Zeppelin, Credence Clearwater, Muddy Waters, Jimi Hendrix or one his favorite women in the world, Janis, although lately he's coming around to thinking Aretha trumps Janis. And if you need to ask Janis "Who?" or Aretha "Who?" well... ask me privately and not him, OK? He'll think you're the Effin Village Idiot.

Of all the characters that I love in January Moon the one I think I actually understand the best is Fred Wiley.

Yes, I know Wiley very well.  We go way back... He washed my face with snow when I was in 3rd grade and my father stormed out the front door and barked "hey, you can't rough house with a girl like that..." and then more kindly "son, that's no way to treat a lady." A "lady" in 3rd grade? Then I hauled off and belted Fred right in the chops. My dad beamed at that one... but later that night he gave me a peek into Fred's heart. "Honey," he said, "I gotta' feelin' that boy Fred's sort of sweet on you..."

OK, so his name wasn't really Fred Wiley but just the same...

Fred proved my father right several summers later. We weren't the same size anymore; he was two years older and bulking up and when he playfully kicked some sand on my blanket it flew into my face like a stinging tornado and I actually started to cry. He must have been as stunned and horrified as I but what he did next probably stunned both of us more. 

He swept down and pulled me up and impulsively planted an awkward kiss that smelled of Juicy Fruit gum, hot dog onions and a hint of Coppertone squarely on my lips and then he bolted across the scorching hot sand. My girlfriends and I agreed it was the most romantic moment in all of history but when he ignored me for the rest of the summer I confided in my Dad who said, "Honey, that boy's so in love with you he's just beside himself." It was the beginning of my understanding that men who are in love are all a little nuts.

OK, so his name wasn't really Fred Wiley but just the same...


And I know Fred because about four years later, once again on a hot summer beach, we pushed the limits of curfew and tolerance for Malt Liquor and shared stories about our plans for the rest of our lives. I couldn't see much beyond getting a driver's license but Fred was brimming with plans and I marveled how old and mature he sounded but three days later I cradled him in my arms as he finally admitted how much he missed his brother, killed when he lost control of his motorcycle on Lake Shore Drive.

OK, so his name wasn't really Fred Wiley but just the same...


And then there was the night like no other when a war -- like all the damn wars in history -- makes a neighborhood girl want to be a worldly woman and love a local boy like he's the only man in the world... 


and so I remember yet another warm star-filled night on yet another beach when the roar of Lake Michigan drowned out the roar of Jim Morrison but couldn't begin to match the roar in our hearts any more than a seiche of cold waves could cool the heat in our bodies.

Of course, that wasn't really Fred Wiley either but just the same...

I remember that night more fondly than any moment in my younger life... and a few days later we said good-bye with promises of love and devotion and evermores... and I began to write daily letters to a kid in a hell hole in Asia.


As I've already said, of course that kid wasn't really Fred Wiley, but just the same...

I love Fred Wiley and always will and if you're a guy my age you're gonna' like him for he's a stand-up dude and if you're a woman my age you already have a tear in your eye.

But boys grow up and become men and you wouldn't know all this about Fred when you first meet him in January Moon, but over time you'd see it. A guy like Fred Wiley sort of grows on you.

The following is excerpted from Part One, Chapter Two; Mack Carter, Del’s father has been taken into custody by the Illinois State Police and they have brought him into the nearest local police station. Del is on his way to the police station but hasn’t arrived yet.

Fred Wiley was a tough talking, chain smoking, ’Nam-era ex-Marine who’d been with the Illinois State Police almost four decades. He could have pensioned out ten years earlier but hoped to die on the job because the idea of retirement was one of the few things that terrified him. His ruggedly handsome leathery face, square jaw, steel blue eyes, old fashioned crew cut and whiskey voice made him look like a stereotypical grunt-eating, fire spitting by-the-book USMC Drill Instructor which is exactly the image he wanted to project.
Wiley was killing time, waiting for the troopers to bring Mack Carter into Matteson, when he decided to ride his partner about his ridiculously pompous name.
“What are you, a pope or something? What the hell kind of name is Aloysius anyway? And Benedict; Jesus: Aloysius Benedict? Don’t know if I should puke or genuflect.”
Benedict tried to explain his friends called him Aloe. “You know, like the aloe plant. The one for burns.”
“Christ, say it ain’t so. Aloe? Like A-hole? You actually let people call you Aloe? What, ’cuz you burn my ass?”
Benedict didn’t know what the problem was or why Wiley insisted on ragging his sorry ass but several bored cops enjoyed the exchange immensely. Everyone knew Wiley was as big of a hoot as he could be horse’s ass but if you weren’t the poor bastard withering under one of his verbal assaults it was damn good fun to be an observer.
“OK, listen up,” Wiley snapped, “I’m calling you Eggs. From now on, you’re Eggs.”
“Eggs? Why eggs? I don’t get it.” Benedict’s cluelessness was possibly even funnier than Wiley. “I don’t even like eggs,” Benedict whined, “and I’m allergic to egg products.”
Wiley threw his hands up in disgust. “You believe this guy? He’s allergic.”
“Wha… what am I missing about this? You don’t think allergic is serious?”
One of the Matteson cops felt compelled to come to his aid. “Eggs Benedict, you get it now?”
Benedict didn’t get anything. His deer-in-the-headlights look said it all.
Wiley snarled, “Hey maybe we should call him Allergic, whaddya’ think?”
One of the other cops tried another tack. “Listen up Aloe, it’s like this man: Aloe just don’t work, you understand? A cop can’t have no partner people call Aloe. It ain’t possible.”
A third cop added, “Hey Aloe, Wiley don’t mean nothing by it. He gives almost everyone a nickname, especially if he likes ’em.”
It was all too much for Wiley and he exploded.
“Like him? You think I like this poor bastard? Hell, I don’t like him. This isn’t love, you assholes. It’s a damn mercy mission.”
***
Wiley nicknamed Ms. Elnora Calista Ness “Eliot” the day he met her and it stuck. Assistant State’s Attorney Ness was that rare breed of attorney content to spend an entire career as a prosecutor. At one time when the office had very few minority lawyers, not to mention even fewer female ones, it was rumored her color and sex made her a double token. Those rumors died quickly as Eliot chalked up an impressive prosecutorial record.
Eliot was brilliant, aggressive, and strikingly beautiful. She currently looked as stunning in short cropped silver streaked hair as she did when she showed up right out of law school. Neither three kids nor middle age screwed up her fine figure or legendary energy. She liked to wear bright colors, short skirts, sexy shoes and insanely large earrings and pulled it off with a panache that kept her from looking cheap.
Eliot’s first criminal prosecution was Wiley’s first homicide case. He didn’t know shit about being a credible professional witness and she knew even less about being an aggressive, sharp prosecutor. Their combined inexperience gave the case to the defense and the perp walked but he showed up later, as most perps will, after he kidnapped, tortured, and murdered another little boy.
Wiley and Eliot believed it was their incompetence that gave the bastard a second chance to kill.  The shared pain of that first trial loss would never go away but it became the catalyst that transformed them into a strong prosecutorial team and they successfully nailed him the second time around.
The day they got his evil ass convicted was also the first night they slept together. That night turned into three more days and nights holed up in Eliot’s tiny apartment in some dump of a building in some shit hole part of the city not far from the courthouse. They periodically came up for air long enough to order pizzas and Chinese and then they went down like submarines again. 
It was a torrid, wonderful affair but Eliot always told Wiley it couldn’t last. He assured her it could and would and he meant it with all his heart. She knew differently.
She insisted the affair be kept a secret, something that really pissed him off.
“Why is this necessary?” he’d storm. He said “I want to go out to dinner with you and my friends” or “I want you to meet my family” and badgered her with questions like “why won’t you introduce me to your family or friends?” But she never talked about her family and she claimed she hadn’t been in Chicago long enough to make many close friends.   
Then one night at the Parthenon in Greek Town Wiley asked her to become his wife. It was just after waiters ignited their order of saganaki and the entire restaurant erupted with joyous shouts of “Oooopa!” Wiley waited for the luscious cheese to cool and poured her another glass of Greek wine. Then he raised a toast to the “Most beautiful, brilliant, and sexy woman in the world, the woman I love and want to marry,” and she froze. She refused to even look at the stunning 2-carat emerald cut diamond he had carefully chosen.
Wiley was stunned when she explained marriage was not an option. “Blacks should marry blacks and whites should marry whites.”
“What are you, nuts?” he fumed. “We’ve been humping the eyes out of each other for two goddamn years and I love you to death. I don’t want to live without you. We can screw but we can’t marry? Where’s the logic in that?”
Eliot was adamant: she wasn’t going to marry a white man. The argument went on for days.
“But this is 1978 for God’s sakes, and this is Illinois,” he argued. “Damnit, El, this is ridiculous.” He accused her of being a bigot in her own convoluted way.
“So, it’s OK to screw me,” he heard himself ask, “but not marry me? Did you lie to me when you told me you loved me?”
No, she loved him very much but she would not marry him. 
Finally, under his relentless pressure, she explained she wasn’t strong enough to be a trail blazer.
“I’ve already gone further than I ever dreamed possible and I don’t want the strain of a mixed-race marriage for the rest of my life or the stress it’ll put on my kids.”
Wiley was stupefied. “That’s crazy,” he said, “please, listen to me baby. We can make this work. There are neighborhoods we can live in. Screw those assholes who don’t like us.”
He had a house in mind in a great neighborhood in Evanston, close to Northwestern University. It was a safe and beautiful town for an interracial couple. Barring that, if she didn’t want to leave the city, there were several other excellent neighborhoods, including Hyde Park, Lincoln Park, and East Rogers Park, all places anchored by world class universities that gave haven to liberally minded folks. Wiley did his homework.
Eliot was emphatic. “Don’t ask me to explain it any more than I already have. It’s over.”
She swooped down on Truman White, marrying him with lightning speed in a historically important black Methodist church on the south side of Chicago less than five weeks later. Tru was an easy going, salt-of-the-earth, church-going black man who wanted nothing more radical than a steady job teaching high school and a few kids of his own. Eliot was the most extraordinary, beautiful, and talented woman he ever met and he adored her. They enjoyed a stable marriage and were the proud parents of three kids but after a lifetime sharing the same bed with Truman, it was still Wiley who came to Eliot in all of her most vivid sexual dreams.
She could live with that; in fact, it was exactly how she wanted it: Tru in her house and Wiley in her head.  
“You’ll get over me,” she assured him but it wasn’t true. No matter how many other women agreed to marry him, the truth was the only woman Wiley really wanted at his side declined the offer.


He wished he’d been able to hate her for rejecting him but that was impossible: Fred Wiley knew he was still very much in love with Eliot Ness.
***
Wiley returned his thoughts to Carter. He wasn’t going to let Mack walk until he spoke to an ASA and he intended the ASA to be Eliot. He didn’t want to think too much about why his heart still skipped a beat or why he felt like a chump just thinking about her. He’d go with the fact she was the best ASA in the county and he was the best dick in the state and it was OK for him to run important issues past her. They had a long history turning his busts into successful prosecutions and if that was the only way he could have Eliot in his life he’d rather take it than leave it.
He never knew what she thought about their working relationship and he always hunted for the faintest glimmer of regret on her part, the merest suggestion that she still cared deeply but those hints and suggestions never came. Her only deliberate effort to maintain social contact with him outside of work was an odd faithfulness about sending an annual Christmas card, something she’d done every holiday since they broke up. She also always remembered to include whatever his wife’s name was at the time, a thoughtful gesture that both amused and puzzled him. He kept every single card, including all the pictures of her kids as they grew up over the years. Their names were branded into his memory: Kenny, Adele and Denise.
Pictures of Eliot and her husband Tru were never included.
***
Wiley looked at his watch; it was still too early to call Eliot. He almost always called her on her cell but tried to respect sensible business hours unless it was a dire emergency.
He didn’t consider Mack Carter a dire emergency. Be cool, he told himself; relax. 
Wiley told Eggs to run out and bring back breakfast. Eggs groused that it was still snowing heavily.
“So what? You don’t eat in winter or something? Cops don’t fight crime in bad weather? You think I should starve ’cuz it’s snowing?”
Eggs wisely bit his tongue and grabbed his parka.
“What do you want?”
“I don’t care, just make sure it’s pancakes, three eggs, sausage, make it links, hash browns, Greek toast and get me a large OJ.”
He tossed Eggs a double saw-buck, adding “Ask that guy Carter if he’s hungry. Tell him I’m buying.”
He didn’t offer to buy anything for Eggs.


HERE'S ANOTHER GOOD SONG BY THE DOORS:
The Doors: Riders on the Storm

ENJOY!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

The Del Carter Calendar Series: Meet Del Carter

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO CHICAGO'S GREAT JAZZ JOINTS & MY AUNT ELAINE. I RECENTLY LEARNED FROM MY COUSIN BETH THAT SHE SANG AT SOME OF THE BEST JAZZ CLUBS BACK "IN THE DAY" (I HAD NO IDEA!).

NOW LET ME INTRODUCE YOU TO DEL CARTER:

Lt. Franklin Delano (Del) Carter is a handsome, well educated Chicago homicide dick who loves Jessica Farrell and mellow sexy jazz. If there’s a saxophone riff in the music somewhere you can bet Del’s gonna’ love it.

Here’s an exchange between Del and his fiancĂ©e, Jess:

“What do you want for Christmas? You’re always so hard to buy for,” she said.
“No I’m not.”
“Yes you are.”
“Just keep me in good sax.”
“Your birthday?” It was right after the holidays.
“Drown me in more good sax.” He looked at her and winked. “See, I’m easy. A whore for sax.”

January Moon has several protagonists which is usually not done… but there are many things about January Moon that defy the classic rules of fiction. Why? Well, probably because it’s my damn book and that’s how I wrote it. J So, if you’re a purest for formulaic fiction, well, then it’s best you move on. But if you’re not – well, then please stay; I think if you learn more about January Moon and its extraordinary characters (and totally unique story) you’re going to really love this book.

If there are two truly central characters in January Moon they are Del Carter and Fred Wiley -- and these two are very opposite men.

Del is a young (thirtyish) homicide dick in Chicago who has experienced a meteoric rise through the ranks. Wiley is an older, more seasoned, homicide investigator with the Illinois State Police; he’s a ’Nam era vet with a gnarly-snarky attitude long on cynicism and full of shrewd. Wiley plays in stark counterpoint to the more cerebral and polished Del.

Del is a complex man; he’s layered with more subtle nuances than the finest wine while Wiley’s a shot & beer kind of guy. Del gets in your head; Wiley gets in your face.

Cops and people who know cops tell me that I’ve nailed these guys, including their sidekicks Eggs and Tooch and Wiley’s dear friend Mayfield. I’ve known a lot of cops in my life but only one is truly represented in January Moon: Lt. Dennis Banahan, a real life Chicago homicide detective, now retired.

Denny is part Del and part Wiley -- some by pure accident and some by design.

Here’s the deal: I was already well into the story when I met Denny Banahan more or less by accident. He was already retired and for several weeks I had no idea that he was a cop.  We were patched together by a mutual friend because of our dogs and that’s a story that’s repeated here on this blog under the tab titled “Trooper, Shadow and Wolf” – so for background about Denny and our relationship, please go there. However, after I learned more about Denny’s career (and read his wonderful book, “Threshold of Pain”) I knew I had found a way to describe Del Carter’s career on a succinct and interesting way. Therefore, I boldly snatched Denny’s creds and after some massaging I created Del Carter’s resume.

Denny told me later, “You know, you might have given Del some of my credentials but you definitely gave Wiley my personality.”

Interestingly enough, that’s the accidental part. It was only toward the very end of the story that I actually began to know Denny Banahan very well but by that time Fred Wiley was fully created and the story was over.

This is probably explainable because I’m Fred Wiley’s generation (and of course Denny’s) and so to some extent – and probably quite a large one – I’ve known guys like Fred Wiley (and Denny) all my life.

Next week I’ll share more about Fred Wiley and the role he plays in January Moon but today I want to introduce you to Del and the best way to do that is to let you read the Chapter that introduces Del to the reader.

Background:

January Moon opens with a Prologue that begins at a truck stop in Urbana, Illinois. In the Prologue the reader meets Mack Carter, Del’s truck driver dad, as well as Del’s mom, Marge. After Mack impulsively rescues a young runaway from the clutches of three predators, something goes terribly, terribly wrong….


PART ONE
Traveling Death
One
Del Carter was flat on his back, one arm under his head and the other under Jess. He was deep in thought, still unaware his dad was on I-57 with a dead girl in his truck.
He looked at the clock and winced; he hadn’t caught a wink all night. In a few hours he was expected to appear at a breakfast meeting with the Mayor of Chicago and some hotshots with the Chicago Convention and Tourism Bureau.
This shit with the Mayor, he thought, is getting old.  Real old, real fast.
Jess was curled up beside him, one arm arched gracefully over his bare chest. He kissed the top of her head; her hair smelled like lavender. With Jess at his side nothing else really mattered. Screw the job, the Mayor, and even the blizzard slamming into Chicago.
All things have their season, he thought, and I just need to figure how to hurry out of this miserable one so that we can begin another.
Give me, kind Heaven, a private station, a mind serene for contemplation; title and profit I resign; the post of honor shall be mine…
Where the hell does this shit come from? It amazed him what his mind retained.
He ran his fingers through Jess’s soft hair. If anyone told him a year earlier he’d fall in love with any woman at first sight he would have said they were crazy. Love at first sight? No way. But Jess Farrell had proven him wrong.
She blew him away the minute he saw her and an hour later he knew she was The One. It just took a little bit of time for Jess to see it too. She was suspicious and asked how he knew it was true love.
“When I see something here,” he pointed to his heart, “and here,” he pointed to his eyes, “and also here too,” he pointed to his brain, “then I know it’s true.”
“We’ll see,” she said.
Then one day Jess saw it as clearly as Del and that’s when her fears surfaced and in a panic she slammed the door to her heart and tried to run away.
“Running away,” he said after he chased her down and made her listen, “is not an option.”
“It’s always an option.”
“I don’t have to be a cop.” 
“Of course you do. Cops don’t choose to be cops, not like dentists and teachers and others. Cops are born cops.”
“That, coming from a woman as brilliant as you, is preposterous.”
“I come from a police family,” she retorted. “I know. It’s in the blood.”
“So, why are you a history professor and not a police officer?”
“Because every now and then one of us escapes…”
No doubt about it, the woman he loved could be a wee bit daft. 
“Hmmm…,” she purred and snuggled closer, “you awake?” Her body was warm and soft and always so desirable.
“Yep.”
“How come?” She raised her head and glanced at the clock. It was 4:00 AM. “You OK?”
“Never better. Go back to sleep.”
“So, why are you awake?” 
“Just thinking.”
“About us?”
“Always.”
“Like what? Tell me.” She played with one of his nipples and he groaned with pleasure.
“Tell you what?”
“What you were thinking. Tell me.”
“You want me to tell you again, for the millionth time, how I knew the minute I laid eyes on you that you were the one, is that it?”
“Yep. I like that story. It’s my favorite bedtime story,” she laughed softly and snuggled closer.
“Professor Jessica Farrell, you’re spoiled rotten, you know that?” It was fine with him; he wanted to spoil the hell out of her.
“Yep. Works for me. So, tell me.”
“OK, I was thinking about the day I first laid eyes on you. You were walking Wolf. July 1st, 1300 hours. Greenleaf Beach.”
“And you stalked me,” she teased.
“Yes, and with great skill I might add.”
“Wolf knew you were behind us. He was watching you.”
“Yeah, and I kept my eyes on him too. He’s a very intimidating animal.”
“But it was love at first sight, right?”
“True. I never saw a more beautiful dog.”
“Not funny.” She pulled a hair out of his chest.
“Ouch! Damnit! That hurt!”
“Be serious,” she chided. “You loved me at first sight, right?”
“Absolutely. But then you told me to go to hell, remember?”
“I did not!” she rose up indignantly.
“Shhh… yes you did. You were still in love with that other guy, Jerry Lewis.” He knew his name but got a kick out of refusing to say it.
“Jerry Levinson,” she said reproachfully, “and I wasn’t in love with him.”
“Whatever. What’s-His-Name.”
“You’re jealous, aren’t you?” She was pleased.
“Of course. I’ll kill anyone who even looks at you.” 
Del gently stroked her hair as she lowered her head onto his chest.
Jess reached up and lovingly stroked his stubble; she traced the outline of his handsome features, starting with his brows and eyes and lightly brushing over his strong cheek bones. Her small, feather light fingers hovered around his nose and danced across his lips. He opened his mouth slightly and she played with his perfect white teeth and teasing tongue and then her fingers moved along, toying with the deeply embedded cleft in his dramatic chin and chiseled jaw line.
Her touch was hypnotic and he soaked up the love. Del’s large, powerful hand cupped hers. He kissed it tenderly and then gently nibbled and sucked her delicate fingers.
“I lied,” he whispered.   
“What?” She raised her head and pulled her hand away but he pulled it back and kissed it again.
“Yeah, I lied. I didn’t tell you everything I was thinking.”
“Should I be alarmed?”
He lowered his arm and held her tightly. “No, babe. Not at all.”
“So then tell me the truth.” She shifted herself around so that she faced him and rested her chin on his chest.  
“I was thinking about how you hate me being a cop and I really meant it when I said I’d probably be happier doing something else.”
“But you love what you do.”
“Not any more. Something’s changed.”
Jess studied him. “You’re serious, aren’t you?”
“Yes. Very.”
            “But hey, sweetheart, it’s turned out you’re very, very good at what you do. The whole city thinks you’re a hero now. The Mayor loves you.”
“I only want to be your hero; I only want you to love me. Screw everyone else.”
“That’s sweet, thank you.”
She lowered her head back onto his chest. “Whatever you want to do, honey, it’s OK with me.”
In a few minutes her breathing changed and Del knew she’d fallen back asleep. Unfortunately, as long as his mind was on hyperdrive he couldn’t sleep.
Images of the career he wanted to abandon played on continuous loop: graduation from the Police Academy, the early years in Narcotics, being detailed to the U.S. Department of Justice’s DEA Task Force, promotion to sergeant, reassignment back to Narcotics as a Supervisor, then lieutenant rank before thirty. Then the chance to transfer to Violent Crimes, something he suspected he’d be damn good at, something proven right.
A helluva career, no regrets, and then all of a sudden it unraveled. What the hell happened?
It was a warm spring day when he was picked by the Mayor and Superintendent of Police, Jim Reardon, to head a Special Task Force to solve a string of murders terrorizing the city. The media nicknamed the murderer the United Nations Killer because his victims were foreigners and tourists.
It took the task force eleven months to catch the United Nations Killer and when they did Del became an instant celebrity. Handsome, well educated, and articulate, the Chicago media dubbed him the city’s “Renaissance Man.”
Mayor Carney knew a public relations goldmine when he saw it and quickly jumped on the bandwagon, declaring Lt. F. Delano Carter the perfect example of a modern police professional. Carney made him the cornerstone of a massive public relations campaign to restore Chicago’s image, an image trashed by the serial killer, an overall increase in crime, and a decade-long series of police scandals and federal investigations.
The Renaissance Man campaign was a huge embarrassment to Del. He detested the name and clenched his teeth just thinking about it. He and Jess knew there wasn’t any outpouring of civic adoration when her father and his partner took bullets that crippled and killed twenty years earlier. Frank Farrell was put into a wheelchair and his partner, Jimmy Pappas, was put into the ground.
Del was also acutely aware of the hundreds of other cops and firemen wounded or killed in the line of duty and he certainly knew he didn’t apprehend the United Nations Killer by himself.
“I’m not the Lone Ranger,” he said, stressing there were hundreds of other cops who worked hard, maybe even harder, to apprehend the bastard.
Del told Carney and Reardon, “No way, get some other patsy,” but they made it perfectly clear that wasn’t an option: as long as Del was a Chicago cop they owned his handsome ass.
Del said it was the publicity, the idiotic Renaissance Man campaign bullshit, that really got to him, turned his stomach and made him want out, but the truth was deeper, darker, and more dreadful.
It came in the name of Dale Bradley Mommsen. Mommsen was a cancer that ate Del’s soul. Before Mommsen, Del only dealt with the ordinary scumbags who routinely keep cops busy in Narcotics and Violent Crimes; scum killing scum and there was a certain dark justice to it. Sure, there was collateral damage but shit happens.
But nothing Del had ever seen in ordinary police work prepared him for Mommsen. Del remembered – in graphic detail – every one of Mommsen’s crime scenes and it didn’t matter if Del’s eyes were open or closed, if he was awake or asleep, Mommsen lived in Del’s head, devoured his sense of worth, and scared him shitless.
Mommsen owned Del’s head more than Carney and Reardon owned his ass.
I should have taken the shot, he thought.
Should have taken the fucking shot.
Instead, Del operated by the book, and now Dale Bradley Mommsen was housed in Tamms, the state’s notorious closed maximum security prison.
Del knew it was only a matter of time. No prison could hold the man.
I should have taken the shot.
**
“OK, so if you don’t want to be a Chicago cop, what do you want to be?”
It was typical of Jess that she could fall asleep and wake up ready to continue her last conversation as if it never ended.
“I don’t know. Maybe I could become an alpaca farmer.”
“What?”
“Or is that rancher? Alpaca rancher?”
“You’re crazy,” she said with mock indignation.
“Shhh….” He laughed and gently pushed her head back onto his chest.
She played with his chest hair and nibbled his nipples and he loved it. She emitted a sultry tigress growl and began to caress the length of his torso, further and further downward. Her touch was erotic as hell.
“God, that feels wonderful.”
Del closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He needed her love as well as the sex. You can heal me, he thought. Definitely, woman, you can heal me.
His respiration and heart rate changed and his abdomen jumped reflexively as her fingers brushed over him. Jess raised herself on top of him and he nibbled her lips and teased her with his tongue. He kissed her neck and licked a small heart-shaped mole under her chin. She teased him with her breasts and he sucked as she moaned with pleasure. They were immediately ready for each other.
“I love morning sex,” he whispered as his tongue danced in her ear and sent shivers down her spine.
Her voice was husky now. “Beats the hell out of Cheerios,” she whispered.
Del was adjusting her lovely rump on top of his pulsing groin when the room exploded with the terrifying roar of hovering helicopters and the heart pounding music of Wagner’s Ride of the Valkyries.
“Jesus H!” Del yelled as Jess cried “Good God!” and rolled off him.
It took a second for them to realize the hellacious noise came from Del’s cell phone and not an Air Cav assault coming through the roof. The phone vibrated across the nightstand and crashed to the floor. Wolf tore into the bedroom barking ferociously; his raised fur formed a one inch ridge that went from the scruff of his neck to his tail. They usually called it “Wolf’s Mohawk.”
“What the shit!” Del groped frantically to retrieve the phone as it proceeded to disappear under the bed. Wolf lunged to retrieve it but Jess held him back; he would have eaten it.
“Goddamnit!” Del’s mind flashed back to a memory of his partner Santucci screwing with the phone. Tooch loved to screw with anything electronic, especially if it belonged to Del. Del swore to God he was going to seriously screw with something belonging to Tooch, like maybe his goddamn shiny new car.
Del moved the bed and grabbed the phone.
“Good Jesus, I’m gonna’ kill that bast…”
He froze in midsentence when he saw the caller’s phone number. Calls that come in the middle of the night are never good, and that’s especially true when they come from parents.
“Yeah, talk to me! What’s wrong?”
            Marge was trying hard to fight hysteria and losing the battle.
“Ma! Slow down, slow down. I can’t understand a damn thing you’re saying.”
Marge started over but Del still didn’t understand her.
“Ma, listen to me: honest to God, you gotta’ slow down. Take a deep breath.”
At first Del thought his mother said his dad died, found in his truck on I-57. Naturally, he was unbelievably relieved to learn he’d misunderstood.
OK, so it obviously isn’t cool that someone else died in the old man’s truck, but it’s a damn sight better than dad himself, right?
“Ma, again, I’m telling you, you gotta’ take a deep breath and slow down. You’re confusing the living hell out of me.”
Del walked his naked butt into the kitchen, picked up a red plastic beverage carafe, and poured cold coffee into a black mug that ominously warned “Life’s a Bitch, Then You Die.” Jess, wearing her favorite schlumpy robe, followed. Del put the mug in the microwave and Jess poured herself a glass of orange juice. Concern marred her beautiful face.
“OK, Ma, let’s start from the beginning. Does Dad know this guy, the guy who died?”
Jess looked shocked and mouthed, “someone died?”
Del nodded “yes.” He cradled the phone under his chin and whispered, “Yeah, and in my dad’s truck, can you believe it?”
Marge kept calling the dead person a “hitchhiker” which Del thought odd because his father never picked up strangers.
“Where did he pick this guy up?”
Marge wasn’t sure but corrected him. “Not a guy, Del, I said a girl.”
“A girl?”
“That’s right, your father said she’s definitely a young girl. Maybe twelve, thirteen…”
“A twelve or thirteen year old girl?” Holy shit. “Is that what you said?” 
His mother said yes: that was exactly what she said.
How the hell did dad end up with a dead girl in his truck? A dead minor girl in his truck?
Marge explained the state police were holding Mack in Mattson and within minutes Del was dressed and flying out the door.
“Jess, I’ll call you as soon as I can, I promise. Keep your cell phone on, OK?” He kissed her quickly and was gone.
The coffee mug stayed in the microwave.

_______________

Del Carter might have been listening to some great sax on his way to Matteson… here’s what he and I have been listening to this morning…. some mellow alto sax playing Billy Joel’s “Just the Way You Are. Enjoy!